between the tears,
a curve ball of joy—
life takes a victory lap
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged baseball, death, life, poem, poetry on October 21, 2018| Leave a Comment »
between the tears,
a curve ball of joy—
life takes a victory lap
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged armageddon, death, gratitude, life, poem, poetry on June 11, 2018| Leave a Comment »
I decided to take
the invitation seriously.
Nothing changed.
I made breakfast.
Went to work.
Walked.
Made a date
to speak with a friend.
Swore at the magpie
that dive bombed
my head. Ate popcorn
for lunch.
Made plans
for four months from now.
Took vitamins.
Drank green tea.
Watered the seeds
planted yesterday.
Talked to the seeds,
encouraged them to grow.
Read a book, stopped
at the penultimate chapter.
Some things are better
left unfinished.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged death, dream, life, poem, poetry on March 3, 2018| 2 Comments »
I choose to go down with the boat
and grip tight the rails—
and the blue water widens its mouth
and swallows the ship, pulls it deeper, deeper in,
but I can’t make my body stay down,
and I float, unwillingly, to the surface.
I wake, spluttering, resentful—
this is not how it was supposed to end—
though the ship was doomed,
I was supposed to stay.
But the sunlight has other plans
for me. All day, I wring
salt water from my hair.
All day the world calls to me
like a crow, start again,
start again, start again
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged daughter, family, father, fireman, hero, life, poem, poetry on February 10, 2018| Leave a Comment »
for Billy Miller, remembering events on January 4, 2012
When the man pulled my father
from the icy waters of Lake Michigan,
he did not know years later my step-daughter
would need someone to buy her a sweater
so she would feel nurtured, did not know
that my son would need someone
to make a mosaic with him so that he
could feel loved, did not know
that my daughter would need
someone to tell her that she
was beautiful. When the man
pulled my father out of the water—
my dad had been fishing alone—
that off-duty fireman couldn’t have known
that years later this very daughter
would sit beside her father and hold his hand
and weep at the simple gift
of being able to hold his hand.
The fireman was doing what he knew to do—
to rush to the person in need of help.
He didn’t think then of the other lives
blessed by the man. Did not think
of the other lives he blessed with his hands
when he chose to try, though the odds
of saving the man were low.
He knew only to reach.
Years later, my mother still sleeps
beside the man that was pulled
from the winter lake.
Give us hands that know to reach
for each other—stranger, neighbor,
friend. Give us hands that unthinkingly
choose to save the family
we’ve never met.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged danger, life, poem, poetry on December 26, 2017| Leave a Comment »
Everything is out to get you.
Still, the thrill of the ice
as your skates glide across it,
still the joy in swimming
even as the water deepens.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged candle, life, light, poem, poetry, reasons to shine on December 10, 2017| 1 Comment »
the candle runs out—
knowing this, the wick
burns no less bright
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged death, life, pests, poem, poetry on June 6, 2017| 4 Comments »
I apologize
as I squish
the green worm
that’s been feasting
on the basil leaf.
It does not change
the fact that the worm
is dead. And the basil
now will live.
Yesterday, my friend Carl
stopped me on the street
and wondered aloud
how we die
to the moment,
then greet the next.
He did not,
of course mean
a literal death.
The basil leaf
has a hole in it now
where the green worm
is not. I pick it
and eat it myself,
not out of spite,
perhaps
to feel how the worm
and I are not
after all
so different.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged life, miracle, poem, poetry on April 27, 2017| 6 Comments »
then I guess it’s fair to say
that today, we walked on water—
how easy it is to not notice
how our every step
is miracle
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged corvid, death, life, poem, poetry on March 8, 2017| Leave a Comment »
Red carcass beside the road,
the thin ribs like white staffs
and the black birds
that flitter around them
like staccato notes
escaped from the score—
if you listen for a death song
all you’ll hear
is the shiny caw of good fortune,
the sound of your own
hungry wheels humming by.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged day of the dead, life, miracle, poem, poetry on November 2, 2016| 2 Comments »
it’s a miracle, I tell you
—Laura Kasischke, “Near Misses”
It’s a miracle, I tell you,
that I am here to make the breakfast
and spread the jelly
on the stale bagel,
a miracle for me to walk
down the icy street
in these scuffed up boots
with these scuffed up feet
and my scuffed up dreams
and my scuffed up love,
a miracle to wander through
the smear of the days,
the spill of the years,
my cells slowing down,
my candles blown out
and relit and blown out
and relit again,
yes a miracle, not just
biology, to feel it so profoundly,
this gratitude that I might stumble
and stride through the world,
a little hum finding my lips
as one foot falls again
in front of the other,
and is lifted, then falls,
and is lifted again.