Of course you feel small.
Look around you.
You are small.
How the sky
and the cliffs
and the trees
rise above you.
Even the bulge
of dark wheat dough
rising in the bowl
is moved
by something
much larger
than you,
though that something
moves you,
too.
Tell yourself
you can walk
and walk and
never stop, and
in the walking
become an expression
of the same movement
that pulls the gluten,
that swells the trees,
that greens the leaves,
that flies the seed
that tumbles the cliffs,
that spreads the milk of the clouds,
that twirls the earth,
that spirals this very small
galaxy and pushes
this inconceivable universe
past its own boundaries.
You are small,
and
infinite is
this inside
you, glorious
surging.
Archive for June, 2011
I’ll Meet You There
Posted in Uncategorized on June 30, 2011| 1 Comment »
By Order of the Cosmos
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged 84, Centration on June 29, 2011| 1 Comment »
The everywhere
of love, the everywhere
of grief
all compressed
(and birthed)
in this very
quiet
kiss
How We Wake Up
Posted in Uncategorized on June 28, 2011| 1 Comment »
Your way begins on the other side.
—Rumi
We don’t want
to fall and we don’t
want to fall and we fall
on our butts.
Again.
Splat.
All the better
to see
the sky.
But It Wasn’t a Path to Follow
Posted in Uncategorized on June 28, 2011| 1 Comment »
after reading “A Necessary Autumn Inside Each” by Rumi, translated by Coleman Barks
In the meadow
of the moment,
there is only here.
But just today,
I got lost on my way
to the moment. Found
some crazy detour
with arrows pointing
in opposite directions
and construction everywhere.
Wherever here is,
I was not.
And then, when I
finally met the moment
and realized I had not
been there all day,
I felt shame and regret,
which got me all
lost again. I spent hours
with a useless map
designed to get me
somewhere else
till Rumi bumped
into me, I swear
on purpose, and said
in a very small voice,
“Be ground.”
“What is that supposed
to mean?” I said,
but he was already
gone, a trail of wildflowers
coming up everywhere
he stepped.
I Have Five Things to Say
Posted in Uncategorized on June 27, 2011| 1 Comment »
based on a title by Jannie Edwards
First, I am angry.
Second, what a mess.
Third, I killed a spider with a book of Sufi poems.
Fourth, opening to page 88: Don’t wash a wound with blood.
Fifth, it is time to be very, very quiet.
A Vessel for Light
Posted in Uncategorized on June 25, 2011| 1 Comment »
When I am in the open, life nourishes even those parts so sorely hidden.
—Mark Nepo, “The Book of Awakening”
The peaches are hiding,
hiding their ripening
weight in the underside
of the leaves. Green
and hard, their sweetness
is still a secret, a perhaps,
a dream. They are fed
by what hides them—
a bright chaos of lances,
green and glancing
in the morning breeze.
We become so preoccupied
with what we cannot see.
The harvest concealed
in the tree. The green
parts of ourselves—
what we can’t yet let go,
what we think we need.
Ripening happens.
What’s hidden does not
stay that way. Soon,
in the orchard, the fruit
will redden, will swell,
will reveal itself through
the canopy. And we who
walk through the trees
are also surrounded by
light. We, too, are being
grown by forces beyond us,
within us, an infinite Eros
tending all this ripening.
And for Today, That’s Enough
Posted in Uncategorized on June 24, 2011| 1 Comment »
I tell you this
to break your heart,
by which I mean only
that it break open and never close again
to the rest of the world.
—Mary Oliver, “Lead”
It is hard
to unfold, day
after day,
to unfold
and open
and bloom.
Even the roses
last only a season.
See how the lilies
drop one by one
their petals
until the table
is a paean
to opening,
but for the naked
pistil, there
is nothing
left to release.
We are not
like flowers.
There is
no rest.
It is always
the season
for opening.
And if there
are no petals
around the heart
left to unfold,
then unclose the hands.
And if the fists
are too tightly clasped,
unclose the eyes.
And if
the eyelids
are leaden,
averse,
then breathe
and feel how
inside,
the lungs
open and
open again.
Seamlessness
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged 84sIn on June 23, 2011| 1 Comment »
Let’s imagine this thread
made of no-thing
that perfectly joins
youtome—
no stitch, no hem, no seam.
*
I welcome you
inside me
though already
you are here—
it’s pleasure
to hang garland
on the heart’s door
*
This is my work:
to give
my attention.
To see past
lines
that
divide.
To
breathe
in you
breathing
in me.
*In a recent article in EnglightenNext, Brian Swimme outlines the 11 “powers of the universe” that define how the universe has constructed itself and us. Seamlessness is the first, referring to the realm of pure potentiality, a dynamic realm of pure generativity, an affirmation that all separate beings in the universe have a common origin and that this origin remains involved with our ongoing existence and functioning.
The Boy Wide Awake Before Sleep
Posted in Uncategorized on June 22, 2011| 1 Comment »
Dad, says the boy
in another room,
How do you get
bad thoughts
out of your head?
The answer
I can’t hear.
*
Once his dad leaves
I snuggle with the boy.
Mom, he says,
the rainbow has touched
everywhere on earth.
*
I say, Yes.
And he says,
We think the sun
only follows us,
but it’s up there
in the sky
for everyone.
Yes.
*
And from there,
he leaps to the stars,
wonders if
we could break one,
maybe with a chisel.
I don’t know.
*
And Mom,
if Earth and a star
crashed,
would we still be here?
No. But the stuff
of our bodies comes back.
*
So you could come back
as a boy and me a girl?
Maybe.
And you could have ten armpits
and I could have none?
*
I don’t know
is the only answer
that seems true.
I don’t know.
I don’t know.
I don’t know, O
I don’t know.
*
Mom! Talking
took the bad thoughts
out of my head!
Dad was wrong.
He said,
Pour cold water
on your head.
*
In another room
the boy sleeps.
His song is at work in me,
how with curiosity
we open.
How,
I don’t know.
(Note: It turns out Finn made up the part about what his dad said, and boy did he laugh at his own joke …)
Quiet Tanka Take Two
Posted in Uncategorized on June 21, 2011| 1 Comment »
It’s not that
peace walked in
on quiet feet.
It was always here
and I finally noticed.
Quiet Tanka
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged tanka, transition on June 20, 2011| 1 Comment »
After the house
has been emptied by blade,
by flame, by flood,
with such quiet feet
enters peace.
In light of last night’s poem
Posted in Uncategorized on June 20, 2011| Leave a Comment »
How do they know? Oh our children, our guides, our thorns, our lights.
This morning, Finn comes to me with this and says, “Mom, I drew this for you. It’s you, climbing the grand staircase to the stars, to the moon.”
Still Life at Dusk
Posted in Uncategorized on June 20, 2011| 1 Comment »
Curious About Unity
Posted in Uncategorized on June 20, 2011| 1 Comment »
The more connected we stay to everything larger than us, the less turbulent our time on Earth.
—Mark Nepo, “The Book of Awakening”
Perhaps it is like when you spin in the grass, and spin and spin and then fall down and stare at the still spinning sky,
or like when you’re taking out the trash in winter, and through the disappearing swirls of your breath, you see the stars in their stable constellations,
or like the time you cut your thumb and tasted the ocean in your blood,
or there was that morning when you stood at the edge of the cliff and knew that your days of knowing were over.
It is not that you don’t recognize the feeling, only that most of the time, you forget it so wholly that you don’t think to remember you’ve forgotten.
Which is to say maybe it’s like when you noticed that something else was breathing you, pulling the air into your belly and then pushing the air back out, and long after the feeling passed, you continued to breathe, the air so familiar rushing over your lips, into and out of your throat.
But I Really Wanted to Make One
Posted in Uncategorized on June 18, 2011| 1 Comment »
And Sweetening Nonetheless
Posted in Uncategorized on June 17, 2011| 1 Comment »
Come stand
in the cherries,
reddening but
not yet red,
and you might
recognize your own
ripening heart,
not yet sure
of its own
sweetness.
Because We Never Know
Posted in Uncategorized on June 16, 2011| 1 Comment »
Still Life with Sky
Posted in Uncategorized on June 15, 2011| 1 Comment »
Surely you saw it, too, the sky.
It was there all day. Blue and bluer
and sometimes clouds, big clouds,
giant white ones that shifted
from horse to accordion to rocketship.
You saw different things, I am sure,
could label them anchor, racket, tree.
Things change seems to be the lesson,
or perhaps it was something about perspective,
though isn’t it just like the mind
to look for a lesson.
Wild Rose in the Garden
Posted in Uncategorized on June 14, 2011| 2 Comments »
When you plant seeds in the garden, you don’t dig them up every day to see if they have sprouted yet. You simply water them and clear away the weeds; you know that the seeds will grow in time.
—Bhikshuni Thubten Chodron, “Meditator’s Toolbox”
Wild Rose, she is in
no hurry. She plants
the roses from seed.
She doesn’t worry
about drought, nor
does she wake up
in the middle of the night
wondering if she
watered the seeds.
Wild Rose lets the wind
bring the rain. Wild Rose
never weeds. She thrills
when the blossoms
come, but she doesn’t
urge on the bud nor does
she wish the blooms
would open any wider than they are.
Her patience does not come
from reading herbal tea bags.
Watch her watching a blossom
unfold as it does. She does
not try to understand it.
She does not write poems
about it. Wild Rose, she
lets the sunlight fall on her hand.
And We Think So Much
Posted in Uncategorized on June 13, 2011| 1 Comment »
Don’t say, don’t say there is no water to solace the dryness at our hearts.
—Denise Levertov, “The Fountain”
We stand outside
in the searing sun,
thirst, thirst,
and wonder why
our outstretched tongues
are dry.
Meanwhile, beside us,
the river floods—
water enough
to take out the road.
Oh the way is seldom
what we think.

















