I am perhaps like the mama sheep
who rejects the lamb that is not her own—
snorts at it, won’t let it suckle,
shoves it away with her nose.
Though her own lamb was born lifeless,
though her teats are full to leaking,
she will have nothing to do with the alien.
It’s not the lamb’s fault it has the wrong scent,
just as it’s not the idea’s fault it was born
in another’s mind. It’s likely a good idea,
just needing a bit of nourishment.
But there are skilled herders who know the art
of grafting, who make of the dead lamb’s skin
a jacket and wrap it around the alien lamb,
tricking the ewe into taking it on as her own.
Then it’s a matter of bonding.
Don’t think I didn’t see you as you stripped the skin.
Don’t think I’m unaware of what you’ve done.
The truth is, I wanted to foster it, to claim it
as my own, to see it frolic in these fields of sage.
I was made for nurturing. It’s just that loss is difficult.
It’s just that sometimes it’s hard to say yes.