Posts Tagged ‘self wrestling’




Don’t move. You don’t want to wake

the person next to you. Don’t sing.

Watch the clouds as they transform

form gray to gold to pink to white.

Fight with yourself about what to do first

when you rise. Count the leaves

on the philodendron. Follow

with your eyes the cracks in the ceiling

and imagine travelling in there. Lose

track of the path that brought you here.

Remember the day in second grade

when you knew you would never be loved.

Try to quiet that bouncy pop song lyric

that will not leave you alone. Don’t hum.

Beat yourself up for not being more courageous.

Tell yourself you shouldn’t beat yourself up.

Give up. Notice the way that the sheet

is so thin and still somehow warm enough.

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