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Every year, the zinnias have died,
or else have come so close to dying
I’ve dug out their bare, stunted stems
and frost-browned leaves and planted
trusty petunias. But this year. This year
an enchantment of zinnias. A profusion
of red. Magenta. Yellow. Orange. White.
An astonishment of beauty. A bright
constellation of earthbound joy.
You have heard this, too: insanity
is doing the same thing again expecting
different results. So let me be insane.
For this is the year when again
I bought zinnia starts and hoped
for abundance and was stunned
by flamboyant abundance. It’s making
me wonder what else I might sow
until I no longer have energy to plant:
Kindness. Forgiveness. Trust. Love.
Just because they haven’t always flourished
before, well, look at all these zinnias
outside my door, brilliant and burgeoning,
dozens and dozens, and sure, they will die
come winter, but for now, more flowers arrive
every day. Brilliant. Just look at all those petals.

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A blue cup. Lemon tea.
Scent of rain.
A drove of stars.
A silence so vast
the mind forgets
to reach for meaning
or purpose and
for a moment
each thing is
exactly what it is.
A cup. Lemon tea.
Scent of rain.
A woman who
does not remember
if she’s a woman
or a star.

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CONTENT WARNING: If the idea of a woman sensually touching herself is not your jam, this video and poem are not for you. Please do not watch. But if you are at all curious about a new language for women’s pleasure, we made this for you. Totally tasteful, totally suggestive. This is what metaphor is for. And if you like it, please share. “No Longer Empty-Handed” is the twelfth track on RISKING LOVE, a spoken-word album that explores how we might fall more deeply in love with the world as it is, even when that seems impossible. 

RISKING LOVE was made in collaboration with the amazing guitarist Steve Law. Video by the glorious Holiday Mathis
To purchase RISKING LOVE, visit here.
Spotify: here ; Deezer: here ; Pandora: here ; Apple Music: here ; YouTube Music: here
And if you are a member of the Recording Academy (or know a voting member for the Grammy Awards), please consider this album for the Spoken Word Poetry Category. 

Video and Audio Releases from RISKING LOVE to Date
Safety Net ;  The Precious Matter of Love ; I Want an Interlude with Mr. Clean ; Into the Questions ; For the One Who Is Gone ; In Case You Don’t Know Already ; The Long Marriage ; The Broken Heart Goes Dancing ; Still Here ; Self-Portrait as Tuning Fork ; Because My Heart Is Where You Now Dwell ; No Longer Empty-Handed

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The Hope Engine


 
Is hope alive?
How does it run?
What is that
turquoise scent?
Do I revile hope
or long for it?
Every morning
it arrives, twists
and writhes and fills
what is vacant
with a beautiful,
mysterious coiling.
I long for miles and miles
of hope, an endless,
generous rope of hope.
I want enough hope
to tie me up and
tether me to what
is here. Is an inch of hope
better than nothing?
An inch is enough
to cast a shadow.
An inch is enough
to make me dream.
A sliver is enough
for me to meet hope
with curious eyes and
offer it everything I am.

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Opening

In a forest of light,
I am drawn to the shadow
and feel how darkness,
too, is an invitation
to wonder. No,
the shadow is not my home.
Neither is the light.
The truest home
is the wonder.

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Sleep Walker


 
 
Sometimes in my sleep
I walk with you. In the woods
or through the halls of a school
or once in a cave with turquoise pools.
We are almost always laughing.
Sometimes we play chase.
Only when I wake do I remember
you are gone. Is it any wonder
I like to linger in bed, sometimes
for hours, as if I could touch
the dream again, my eyes still closed,
my hands wide open.

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Enter Here

 
 
At the same time
a tree grows
in two directions,
toward darkness,
toward light.
Come, look through
the door of the heart.
Do you see how you,
too, are made of roots
and leaves?
The door opens and opens.
Do you see how you,
too, are a tree?

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Bridge Impressions

 

 
Imagine if, instead of a wall,
we built a bridge between us,
a bridge made of every door
we ever locked, every carpet
we did not lay down for each other,
every fear that’s kept us
from saying hello.
I want to take the risk
to walk toward you
as through a sparkling sky
entranced by the scent
of greening all around—
want to pause with you
mid-bridge and notice how
it can be so beautiful,
this place between us.

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Little Explorer


 
 
To walk in the woods
is a kind of prayer.
Come in on quiet feet
and feel how you are not
alone. The golden trees
are full of eyes.
What are those sounds
you cannot name?
Whatever is untamed
inside you sings along.
Dwarfed by awe,
you might feel small,
but the inner song says,
you are all.
 

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Alteration


 
 
Though you’ve tried
to fit into
a thousand
small boxes,
perhaps comes
the day when
you’re opened
by grief or by
love, and your
thoughts unstitch
from what you knew,
and your mind
begins to rhyme
with sky, becomes
spacious enough
whole flocks
of bluebirds
can fly right
through, and
for a time you
stop trying
to make sense
of things, you
simply yield
to being
a home for
the ecstasy
of wings.

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What if we could make a room inside our hearts where our beloveds who are no longer physically present could live? What would you put there? What scent would be in it? What tastes? What textures? The title of this poem was inspired by Leigh Gage. “Because My Heart Is Where You Now Dwell” is the eleventh track on RISKING LOVE, a spoken-word album that explores how we might fall more deeply in love with the world as it is, even when that seems impossible.

The amazing music is by Steve Law. The amazing video is by Holiday Mathis. My gosh, these two are incredible collaborators! Please, watch the video (above) and share it. We made this for you! 
To purchase RISKING LOVE, visit here.
To listen, visit Spotify: here; Deezer: here; Pandora: here; Apple Music: here; YouTube Music: here

Video and Audio Releases from RISKING LOVE to Date
Safety Net ; The Precious Matter of Love ; I Want an Interlude with Mr. Clean ; Into the Questions ; For the One Who Is Gone : In Case You Don’t Know Already ; The Long Marriage ; The Broken Heart Goes Dancing ; Still Here ; Self-Portrait as Tuning Fork ; Because My Heart Is Where You Now Dwell

*Do you know anyone who votes for the Grammys? Steve and I are submitting our album for consideration … and if you know someone who might be interested in the Spoken Word Poetry category, perhaps you could encourage them to consider watching one of our videos to get a feel for RISKING LOVE.

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In the bowl, an old
lemon, shriveled
and hard-skinned,
Still, when I slice it,
the desiccated lemon
gives whatever brightness
it has left to the glass
of water. Oh dried-up
yellow teacher,
thank you for reminding
this dried-up version of me
to value what gifts
I have been given,
to love the world
enough to give
the gifts back.

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Fräulein

Just because it’s a song about a man leaving a woman
and realizing he still loves her doesn’t mean

it isn’t also a song about a mother and a daughter
singing their hearts out in a car, both of us

falling in love with what the human voice can do
and what a song can do when two people choose

to sing it together, over and over, until it becomes
our anthem, until it becomes the glue in something

larger than we are, something less about the words
and more about the transmission of love,

the shared moments in which we come together
to sing it, you on the melody with Tyler Childers,

me on the harmony with Colter Wall. And the more
we sing it, the more I’m in love not just with the song,

but with you, because no matter what the song is about,
it’s our song, and we choose to sing it again and again,

because joy, because the way two voices come together
as one, even out of tune, because, Fräulein, this song is ours.

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Ongoing


 
 
I don’t know how, after your son has died,
you go on, she said, and I don’t know either,
but this morning, I walked through the field
 
where he used to drive the Gator, pulling his
friends behind him in an old red canoe, all
of them howling their laughter, shrieking their joy,
 
and I stood in that empty field and wept, my heart
in halves, and a scrap of old joy slipped through
the crack, and I laughed, tears streaming, I laughed.

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Creatures, All

I love the small sounds of pleasure

people make when taking the first

sip of coffee, or when sitting, at last,

after standing for hours. That soft

hum of delight that escapes the lips

when someone presses a thumb

into the arch of our foot and makes

small circles on the sole. That sigh

that flies out when we step into shade

on a relentlessly sunny day. Bless these

moments when the mind can’t outbrain

the animal living inside us, when

our untamed self slips through the cage

of decorum and groans or purrs

or moans or gasps and reminds us

that beneath all our fancy syntax

and pretty words, we’re creatures.

Every triumphant roar and ecstatic howl

is proof of our common primitive tongue.

Fluent in human, we praise in squeals,

blissful giggles, grateful throaty grunts.

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In a circle of mountains
it’s easier to remember
we belong to the mountains,
belong to high-pitched cheep
of pica, belong to the cliffs,
to the path, to the unpath,
belong to the blue,
blue reach of sky.
 
We belong as much to each other
as we belong to ourselves,
each of us a poem read by strangers
and beloveds in ways only they can read us,
each of us constantly rewriting
our lines, while in the meantime
we are constantly rewritten
by a great and unnamable
is-ness that rhymes us
each to each other.
 
We belong to the truth
that all belongs, even when we
are most lonely, even when
we would rather push away
from the world.
 
In a circle of mountains,
it is easier to practice belonging—
easier to notice this math:
your heart equals my heart,
and all this opening, opening, opening
to what we cannot know,
that equals what a life is for.

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I would never have invited it into my heart,
but it came, a wildfire, burning down
every single thing I thought I knew
about love. There were no wings
that appeared in the ash. Not all
fallen things learn to fly. But
the aftermath was the first time
I was still enough for long enough
to hear a peace that thrums
through everything. I do not pretend
to know how it works, but neither
can I pretend to not know it is here.
Even in the char. And, I suspect,
even in the flame.

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said the shaggy mane,
this how to write a poem—
spill your ink
all over everything, then
disappear

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So Alive 


 
Finn, the larkspur are nearly done blooming now,
the tall stalks are scruffy with seed pods where
the dark blue petals used to be.
Is it strange to give you the garden report?
Today is four years since you chose to leave
this world of bindweed and deep red dahlia,
this world of millipedes and green beans
dangling on their vines. The sky is thick
with smoke from a wildfire not so far away.
It was a relief when it began to rain
while I was picking snapdragons and
sunflowers, zinnias and lavender.
I didn’t mind getting drenched
while I filled five vases with flowers,
four vases for our home and one
your father and I took to your grave.
I felt so alive in the middle of the storm,
arranging the blooms in vases just so
while the water dripped from my hair, my nose.
Felt so alive as I smelled the air and spoke
to you and the flowers and sky.
Today my friend Wini told me one way
to keep life sacred is to ask the holy to come.
Please, I said as I stood in the rows.
Please, come. Is it possible the asking itself
is the bridge from the everyday to the holy?
Because I felt it. There in the rain
with my grief-bent heart. There beside
the calendula, aphids and all. Hair plastered
to my head. Tears on my face. Memory
of you writing I love you in the carrot bed.
Me making bouquets for a difficult day.
Even when it hurts, the holy.

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Perhaps the greatest risk in love of all? Loving the self. Not the small self—the self of ego—but the life that lives through us—the Self that is still here when all the trappings of who we think we are fall away. “Self-Portrait as Tuning Fork” is the tenth track on RISKING LOVE, a spoken-word album with guitarist Steve Law that explores how we might fall more deeply in love with the world as it is, even when that seems impossible.

RISKING LOVE audio by Steve Law. Video by Holiday Mathis. Please, watch the video (above) and share it. We made this for you! 
To purchase RISKING LOVE, visit here.
To listen free on Spotify: here ; Deezer: here ; Pandora: here ; Apple Music: here ; YouTube Music: here

Video and Audio Releases from RISKING LOVE to Date
Safety Net : The Precious Matter of Love : I Want an Interlude with Mr. Clean ; Into the Questions ; For the One Who Is Gone ; In Case You Don’t Know Already ; The Long Marriage ; The Broken Heart Goes Dancing ; Still Here ; Self-Portrait as Tuning Fork

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