Yesterday, the thing to do
was to rake the golden leaves
from the grass and gather them
into huge untidy piles
for my husband to pull away.
Today the invitation is
to not rake the leaves.
To sit in the grass and feel myself
folded into an unmanaged beauty.
The invitation is to admire
their infinite shades of yellow
and brown—to notice
how some are speckled,
some torn, some brittle,
some still impossibly soft.
If some part of me
feels duty bound
to straighten the world,
she is not here now.
I want nothing but to sprawl
in disorder, to feel only delight
as the wind releases leaves
from the autumn trees,
want to relish how, with no politic,
the leaves dance to the ground.
Want to know myself as unruly,
one who finds joy in the rustling,
one who thrills in the glorious mess.
Posts Tagged ‘purpose’
What We’re Doing Here
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged love, meaning of life, purpose on February 14, 2021| 2 Comments »
This is why we are here—
not merely to survive
but to fall in love
with the white-breasted hawk
and the rainbow fish,
with the lonely sidewalk
and the shadows of ourselves,
fall in love with the hands
of the woman wearing yellow
and the girl who loves chocolate
and the boy who loves cars
and the man who makes us want to be
a better version of ourself.
We are here to fall into unmanageable love—
to love beyond reason, beyond
fact, beyond certainty. We are here
to lose all our ideas about love
and know it as the next choice
we make, the next word
we say, the next invitation
we offer ourselves.
We are here to love
the world and each other
the way whales love water,
the way blue loves a peacock,
the way night blooming jasmine
loves night.
Editor’s Choice for Rattle’s Ekphrastic Challenge!
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged ekphrasis, purpose, Rattle on January 30, 2020| 6 Comments »
Today, Rattle.com featured my poem, “Seeking Purpose,” which I wrote in response to Natalie Seabolt’s beautiful image, “Bound,” as the Editor’s Choice for their Ekphrastic Challenge! I love this practice of writing poems for images–this one explores our purpose, and how it might be nice for the world to give us just a little clue about what that might be. You can download a broadside of the poem and image right there on Rattle’s page.
Beside the River with My Daughter
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged daughter, fairies, mother, poem, poetry, purpose, river, rocks on November 17, 2019| Leave a Comment »
Hundreds of smooth red stones—
we gathered them that summer
and spent days carefully laying them out
into a wide and winding red path.
It had no real starting point, no destination.
We tucked white daisies between the rocks.
We said it was for the fairies.
I wouldn’t have said it then, in fact,
I hesitate today to say we didn’t believe in them.
They gave us so much purpose.
Even now, I’m following that path.
Two Things I Would Give You
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged friendship, giving, poem, poetry, purpose, sleep on September 18, 2019| 7 Comments »
Sleep, of course. Long,
uninterrupted hours of sleep.
For a week. For a month.
For a year. You’d just put your head
on the pillow, and sleep
would come meet you
like a devoted friend, or like
a dog that will come whenever you call,
and snuggle with you all night.
And then, when you woke,
I would give you the certainty
that life is worth waking for,
that you are beloved,
that everything you do
makes a difference, and
by everything, I mean everything.
Not If, But When
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged end of the world, lunch, parenting, poem, poetry, purpose on September 20, 2018| Leave a Comment »
In April, the Harvard
Department of Physics
issued a study suggesting
the universe will end the way
it began, with a bang. in fact,
they say, there’s likely a bubble
of true vacuum “barreling
toward us at the speed of light.”
The moment we see the bubble
will barely precede the moment
it destroys us.
And still, despite their findings,
I rise every morning in the dark
and make my children lunches.
Evenly spreading the butter
onto my daughter’s bread.
Slicing the cheese thin as hope,
just the way my son likes it.
As if making their lunches
really matters in these moments
before our demise.
Yes, I select the firmest apples.
Toast the walnuts
with maple syrup and salt
so they sing in the mouth,
both savory and sweet.
As if they will eat the food
and taste love. As if
they’re important, these
things that we do.
While Trying to Decide What Comes Next
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged clarity, poem, poetry, purpose on February 26, 2018| 2 Comments »
There is clarity in the three-hole punch,
the way it is made to receive the paper,
always the same every time.
How it punches the holes always
equidistant from each other. It never worries
it’s not doing its job good enough. Never
worries it isn’t worthy of the pages it meets.
There is clarity in the way it flexes beneath
the hand, how it does the one thing it was made
to do. And you, with your hand on the black
length of it, you with your thousands of choices
inside every moment, what is it that needs
your precision? Maybe you’re making it
too hard. Maybe it’s your turn to do
the one thing you were made to do.
From Dust
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged poem, poetry, purpose on February 6, 2017| 4 Comments »
Nothing More Wonderful, Really
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged love, poem, poetry, purpose on September 8, 2015| 1 Comment »
Usually for a man. Or a woman. A someone else.
You get the feeling you could fast for a year.
Or run Everest. Barefoot. With a hundred pound pack.
In a blizzard. Uphill. Both ways. And the rest of the world
would sigh, and say, “Ah, love. Makes people crazy.”
And though there would be a lot of head shaking
and tongue clicking, the world would be jealous.
But sometimes it happens that you get the feeling
you might just do the craziest thing, not really for anyone else,
not really for you, either, in fact, you do it for no reason
at all except that it rises in you that this is The Thing To Do—
sure, run up a mountain. Or swim the Atlantic.
Or crawl the Sahara. Or even, imagine it,
dare to wake up and drink coffee, then walk
out the door to the car like the unlikely hero you are,
drive the speed limit down the highway to the office, where
you do whatever you do and give it everything
you have, crazy as it seems. Oh the stapler! The paperwork!
The phone calls one after the other! The sun on your face
when you step out the door. Oh yeah, the people
of the world will be shaking their heads, thinking,
“Dang, that is crazy,” but they will also be wondering
as you walk down the street as if the world is walking with you,
“Wow, how do I get me just a little bit of that?”
Though I Seldom Remember to Sit
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged meditation, poem, poetry, purpose, what are we doing here? on July 18, 2015| 1 Comment »
How soon I forget
the reason I walked into this room.
It is not hard
to walk back to where I was
moments before
and usually I remember.
Sometimes I forget
the reason I am here,
and I do not know where
to go back to, wherever
we came from,
to retrieve the purpose,
though sometimes
when I sit very still
it arrives, not as an answer,
not as a word, more
as a sense that I am being breathed
and that I have not
travelled so far,
that whatever I have come here for
is right here.