This rope of love
I tied in knots
without knowing
how to untie them.
Knot after knot,
I tied a net
for catching
myself, all the while
longing for freedom.
Why do we play
such games—
one hand open
in prayer, begging
for one thing,
the other hand working
as fast as it can
for the opposite.
You know the old
magician’s trick
when he produces
from his pocket
a knotted rope,
mumbles some magic,
and with his words
all the knots fall out.
Ta da! Well, it was not fast like that,
but slowly and quietly
and one by one
with both hands
open and by some
miracle all the knots came
undone and I
am falling, falling
through the threads
I thought would save me,
falling into the stark
between the stars,
falling through
the fragrance of laughter
and the silence
after that.