There are moments I forget she is gone.
Perhaps when I am in the garden. Or painting
rocks. Or making dinner. And then I remember.
She’s gone. I cry less now, but still.
I cry. Of course. Because the cloth I use to wipe
my glass table. Because the vase I slip
marigolds into. Because the necklace
I am wearing. Because out of nowhere
the sound of her voice. Because
the book I am reading. Because
when I think of how much she loved me,
how much I loved her, I gasp and
my nose starts to tingle and my eyes
well, and I know she would tell me
not to cry, but I do. Because it’s a beautiful
and rare gift to love someone. Deeply. Because
she was my gift. Because I was hers.
Beautiful and oh-so-true. For grief, in of itself, is love.
they are quite linked, yes … thank you, friend.
You’ve touched all the tender spots, many I’ve known. Somehow it helps to see them in words….a personal bleeding out, and at the same time a communal recognition….Thanks again, Rosemerry.
thank you, Carol … a communal recognition. That’s exactly it, what I feel, too … that’s why when you write to me it’s so important to me. thank you.