trying to pickpocket
the universe—it turned around
and gave me everything
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snapdragon in the rose bed
thriving and in full bloom—
pulling it anyway
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hotel on boardwalk—
the thimble would rather
play charades
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when I was young and read Lord of the Flies,
and when I read the part where Piggy dies,
I screamed out loud, You got it wrong. No!
As if Golding could hear me through the spine.
Perhaps because I also was a geek.
Perhaps because I didn’t want to know
how cruel the world can be. How kids like me
could choose, in fearful times, to kill our friends.
My son detests the book, but not because
the boys are cruel, because it moves too slow.
I try to reconcile his callousness, his good
and tender heart. He’s grown up in an age
where killing is a part of weekly life.
How strange for me to grieve the loss of grief.
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for Shawnee
This time the goodbye is in the kitchen,
me running off to the next thing,
you at the counter with morning tea
before you drive away.
I give you a hug from behind
and a kiss on your cheek and thank you
for coming to visit.
I want to tell you I love you,
but the words have never
tumbled out easily, not because
they aren’t true, but because
I don’t want to frighten you.
Strange to feel I must hold you at a distance
in order to keep you close,
like a mother bird
who monitors her nestling
from a neighboring tree.
I never was one of the mothers
who worry about fatal things:
car crashes, avalanche, infectious disease.
I worry more about the most
terrible thing that could happen,
that you could be alive and not know how
much I love you, fiercely, unfoldingly,
worry my longing
to keep you at ease could
make you feel pushed away.
Driving from the house,
it is not the sun in my eyes
that makes them leak,
it’s this knowing that I
have made for you a nest
in my heart where I hold you,
but perhaps what you needed all these years
was for me to hold your real hand,
to wrap my real arms around
where your wings would be.
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based on The Guest, by Anna Akhmatova
I felt the way he looked at me across the room.
Hungry. A bear in spring. Glass of red wine
in his paws. His gaze hooked into me
as I parted the currents of the crowd.
I found a window, stood in its chill,
felt his heat arrive behind me. Scent
of tundra. Sweet grass. I did not turn
to him to speak. What do you want,
I said. To meet you in hell, he said,
his voice layered in honey and shade.
I met his eyes in the window, saw him
on his hind legs, rippled, as though through a lake.
You mean to have us both destroyed,
I said. Watched through our reflections
the falling snow. Tell me, he said,
how men kiss you. Tell me how you kiss.
My lips wanted to show him, Like this,
but my mouth formed in a silent O,
round as a wedding ring. In the mirror
of the night, I watched his eyes linger there.
And the gold on my finger slipped off
as my hands transformed to fins. I knew
some part of me would die. I knew
I would choose to swim.
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I wanted the artwork hung on the wall, a slip of paper with bright splattered paint. I had no tape, no tack, no nail. But strange, in the corner I noticed a small brown mound of shit. And strange I could not smell it. I did not know how it had come to be there. Did not know how long it had been on the floor. And for reasons I can only explain as urgent, I considered its sticky properties. The possibility clicked in before the revulsion. By then it was too late. I took my naked hand and smeared a brown arc on the wall, then pressed into it the art. It held. It occurred to me to be embarrassed. It occurred to me it was gross. Unhealthy. Unnormal. I was repulsed. And slightly proud in making due when resources are few. There was some pleasure in the way I shocked myself. Not with what I did, but with how I dare now to tell the truth.
**Dear friends, this is, of course, from a dream.
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beneath the meadowlark,
the fencepost turns pulpit—
praise, praise, praise
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There was a time when I’d pull his hair out
if he sat too close to me on the couch.
Now, I curl into his right side,
lean my head on his shoulder,
feel the trembling of his chest
as he weeps. How good it feels
to be close to him as we grieve.
How familiar, the shape of his head,
the heft of his hand as he reaches for mine.
How deeply right, this leaning
into sorrow together.
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but I would rather write poems about kissing,
beside the wild roses, for instance,
with nothing between us
but perfume and shadow.
Or kissing riverside
with waves frolicking into
our sighs. Or kissing anywhere,
really, a parking lot, a stairwell,
the front step, in a plane.
See how this urge turns
everything into a love poem,
even this, which began
as a poem about loss,
has found gardens inside it
with long rows just perfect
for kissing, slow kisses
both bruising and sweet.
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