every time I giggle
though no one else can hear it
inside my laughter, your laughter
PLUS
Three Father’s Day Poems in Telluride Inside & Out
you can read them here.
Wishing a Happy Father’s Day to all the dads❤️❤️❤️
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged dad, daughter, Father's Day on June 14, 2025| Leave a Comment »
every time I giggle
though no one else can hear it
inside my laughter, your laughter
PLUS
Three Father’s Day Poems in Telluride Inside & Out
you can read them here.
Wishing a Happy Father’s Day to all the dads❤️❤️❤️
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Father's Day, grief, Louis Armstrong, love on June 16, 2024| 10 Comments »
Sometimes I crawl inside
“What a Wonderful World”
where I am cradled not only
by the lyrics and the velvet
of Armstrong’s growlsome voice,
but also by my father who loved
the song so much that now,
almost three years after his death
the tune has become his arms
and each note carries some trace
of his love so that by the time
Louis croons “oh yeah” at the end,
I am moved in the same way
the wind moves a dead flower
across the field.
I am one with the leaves
and the roses, the skies
and the cries of the babies,
one with the love that stays,
one with the pain my father
was in in and one with the pain
of loving anyone whose death
leaves us feeling both empty and full.
In his last hours, Dad said,
“From our birth to our death,
the wonderment.”
I curl into that wonderment.
I sing along.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged daughter, father, Father's Day, grief, loss on June 20, 2022| 8 Comments »
Perhaps you listen again and again
to his favorite song. Maybe you look
at photos of him and remember
birthdays and Tuesdays and boat trips
and snuggling on the couch.
Maybe you reach out to touch his head,
miss the soft fuzz of his buzz cut.
You might light a candle and say his name
as you have nearly every day since he died.
Of course, he loved “What a Wonderful World.”
And the world is wonderful, though damn,
what you wouldn’t give to hear him
say your name or your nickname,
to hear the sunshine in his voice—
how it touches your heart like sunrise on water.
You might walk out into the night
and converse with the stars as if he were listening.
Maybe you feel the strangest infusion of love,
as if your arms are tingling
and your chest is tingling
and you can’t explain it
but your whole body’s humming.
Perhaps you cry, but there is no way to know
what percentage of the tears is sadness
and what percentage is gratitude.
Perhaps you think of all the other daughters and sons
who have lost their fathers
and you open your heart to their loss.
You decide, again, to honor him
by living a life he’d be proud of.
Your father, perhaps you think
of the last day you saw him alive,
how he lifted his hands,
his eyes tracking something you couldn’t see.
Perhaps you practice remembering him—
his laughter, his fury, his advice, his silence—
and you notice how, each time you practice,
he is so close to you, as close as breath.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged father, Father's Day, healing, poem, poetry, rain on June 17, 2018| 6 Comments »
for my father
And when at last
the healing comes,
may it come like rain,
like rain after a long drought,
so soft that at first
you won’t be sure
it is raining,
but the fragrance
will overcome you,
green and wet,
and the world
will look dewy and
you’ll feel it in your lungs.
Yes, may the healing
arrive in a way that
astounds you,
as today when the rain turned
long and steady,
the kind that touches
and changes everything,
changes things so completely
you almost can’t remember
what it was like before,
yes, may healing come like this
so that everywhere you look,
all you see is promise.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged daughter, father, Father's Day, poem, poetry on June 18, 2017| Leave a Comment »
It began as my father cheering for me,
he’d count it off, then chant low and bright,
One, Two, Three, Yay Rox!
He used it often—for curtain calls
and piano recitals and catching fish
and semester finals. And he’d use it,
too, when I’d come in blue
with rejection letters or a broken heart,
and he’d say it softer, with a squeeze and a hush,
One, Two, Three, Yay Rox.
His is a heart of sun.
All moments are moments worth honoring.
What does not makes us more wholly ourselves?
And then, I don’t remember when,
he changed the rules and made me join in.
Made me say the five words together with him,
whether I wanted to or not,
One, Two, Three, Yay Rox!
How my own tongue stumbled, still sometimes does,
but always, his voice is there beneath my own,
steady and confident, tender and clear.
After years decades of cheers, I daily
harvest the wealth.
How wise, the father, who gives
a girl herself.