beside the great lake
holding hands with the sun—
every step a thanksgiving
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged poem, poetry, thanksgiving on November 26, 2019| 2 Comments »
beside the great lake
holding hands with the sun—
every step a thanksgiving
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged conversation, love, poem, poetry, relationships on November 25, 2019| 2 Comments »
Because we are traveling,
I say, We’re on the plane.
I say, Just landed. I say, See you soon.
As always, my heart leans beyond
the transactional. Longs to say,
Tell me about the pain. Longs
to say, I feel lonely. Longs to ask,
What do I most need to know?
But it’s not easy to hear. And
there isn’t much time. Is that
just the same old excuse?
And so I say, I love you,
because it is true. Say,
Can’t wait to see you.
Say, Gotta go. All through
the flight, the heart keeps leaning,
rehearses the five
most important words:
tell me all about it.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged breath, moving, nordic skiing, poem, poetry, sitting on November 24, 2019| Leave a Comment »
Someday I’ll prefer to sit, to sit
and breathe and think or not think
and sit. But now, now when
the high mountains sing with snow
and the snowcat has groomed
a path through the nowhere of spruce
and the sky is a winnowing blue
that makes me unknow my name,
yes, now is the moment to slip deeper
into the self of myself
and snap skis on my feet
and let the day slap a smile on my face
that I could not possibly unsmile,
because for now, there is
this burn in the lungs, this wind
in the face, this spilling of laughter,
this joy in stride and push and glide,
this thrill in losing the breath.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged cleaning, clothes, KonMari, poem, poetry on November 23, 2019| Leave a Comment »
I did it. Exactly as she said.
I removed everything
from my closets and drawers,
and touched each thing—
every sock, every shirt, every shoe—
and I asked them, “Do you bring me joy?”
Joy, it turns out, wears many clothes.
She likes scarves. Wide necklines.
Black pants. She loves long knit dresses
and tall leather boots. She needs
lots of sweaters and many gardening gloves.
And all the while I did it,
I did as she said, I visualized
the life I want,
which is apparently a life
in which my closet is full of black pants
and scarves and tall leather boots—
a life in which I talk to my clothes
and smile as they whisper back to me,
Joy, Joy, Joy.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged anticipation, curiosity, ekphrasis, hokusai, poem, poetry on November 23, 2019| 2 Comments »
after The Great Wave off Kanagawa by Katsushika Hokusai
In this sea, the great rogue wave is always
about to crash, and the fishermen
in their long thin boats
slip themselves forever in its path—
and though it hangs above them
with hundreds of frothing claws,
and though they cower atop their boats,
they’ve yet to be cast off into the sea—
and the moment is forever charged
with an anticipation larger than
the highest mountain, caught in curiosity—
how will it be to be devoured?
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged cancer, healing, kindness, knitting, poem, poetry, strangers on November 21, 2019| 4 Comments »
Someone has crocheted a half dozen blankets—
one dark purple, another camo green, another
with stripes in every possible color.
There are half a dozen quilts with bright squares.
And someone has knit a dozen hats—
and a basket on the shelf overflows with handmade scarves.
My friend chooses a pink cotton pillow
that someone has sewn in the shape of a heart
and a long creamy scarf, impossibly soft.
She would rather be anywhere but here,
but look at that smile as she dons the scarf,
as if its stitches are keeping her from falling away.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged hands, labor, poem, poetry, tea on November 20, 2019| Leave a Comment »
Malty, bright and voluptuous,
the tea meets me this morning,
and though I’m alone, the kitchen
is filled with other hands—the
potter’s, for instance, that threw
and trimmed and pulled and glazed
this favorite mug into mugness.
And the hands of the harvesters
in India who gathered the fresh green leaves
of the second flush, then
spread them on a tray and left them
to dry in the sun. And who rolled the leaves?
And who gathered them after they aged?
I wrap both hands around the mug
and inhale the musky scent of tea
and marvel at how much humanity
went into this simple cup. I stare
at my knuckles, my fingers, my palms.
It’s your turn, I tell them.
Serve the world well. Can you make something
so bold, so strong?
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged love poems, poem, poetry on November 19, 2019| 6 Comments »
I plunge both hands
into the love poem,
surprised to find
they’re now handcuffed there.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged answer, friendship, peace, poem, poetry, question, solution on November 18, 2019| 4 Comments »
Part of me wants to give you
the book of answers, the solution key,
to help you know which decision, A, B, C or D,
will bring the most healing, the most happiness.
I no longer believe in such a book, such a key.
Instead I wish for you the peace
that comes only with surrender—
a word that sounds beyond reason
until it becomes beacon, becomes
north star, becomes map.
May you know for certain
that in every case, you are beloved.
May you know beyond doubt
that no matter what happens,
you always become more essential, more you.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged daughter, fairies, mother, poem, poetry, purpose, river, rocks on November 17, 2019| Leave a Comment »
Hundreds of smooth red stones—
we gathered them that summer
and spent days carefully laying them out
into a wide and winding red path.
It had no real starting point, no destination.
We tucked white daisies between the rocks.
We said it was for the fairies.
I wouldn’t have said it then, in fact,
I hesitate today to say we didn’t believe in them.
They gave us so much purpose.
Even now, I’m following that path.